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Every morning when I get up and make myself a cup of coffee, I find myself staring face to face with a large molten-looking rock. It's a fulgurite; a rock that was struck by lightning, found in a patch of desert and passed along to me by a paleontologist. It had been superheated, melted and fused by the hammer of the heavens, and when most people see it they think it's ugly because it's chaotic in appearance. There are air pockets and molten rivers and glassy patches where there used to be sand. It is large and heavy, a small boulder in a sunny patch on my windowsill where most others might have put a potted plant blooming with small pink flowers.
The rock and I have an uneasy relationship. My superstitious very Italian mother hates it. She says fulgurites are cursed and bring ill luck to the home. But I am not superstitious. The rock and I stare at each other every morning because we share a history. We've both been struck by lightning. Sometimes I lean forward after pouring myself a cup of coffee and tap the mug to the rock and say, "cheers."
I was nine years old and coming home from school. There was a storm of the mediocre muggy summer afternoon sort and the sky was an angry puffy blue, like a face with a black eye. I'd seen storms like these almost every day of every summer of my life up to that point. I knew how they worked, what they smelled like, how they moved, and I knew from the way the sky seemed to take a deep breath and roll over that it was about to downpour, so I started jogging to get home. Somewhere in the last hundred or so yards to my driveway, I realized the hair on my arms was standing straight up. I remember thinking, "That's weird."
I'd like to think that being struck by lightning is about as close as a human being can get to something like the event horizon of a blackhole. There's something about that moment when my hair stood up that I cannot erase from my memory...like realizing you are being stretched into something you cannot escape, a thousandth of a second of a wordless profundity. Maybe at some point there was something like a gravitational singularity, where time stood still and that maybe at that point I saw into my past and into my future. A moment of infinity.
Well, either way it fried some things.
When I first picked up that fulgurite, I can't explain it, but it was if the stone and I had an understanding. Even on a molecular level. Two magnets, drawn to each other and repelled by each other. While I tend to have an Adam-complex and I go around naming every single thing in my domain, the rock is simply the rock. The one significant object that shares my space but remains without a name, without a label, without a denomination to me. It is...in a sense...symbolic of everything I cannot predict or control. And every morning I get up, I look at it, and it reminds me that change is always prickling underneath my toes, or tickling the top of my head.
The rock and I have an uneasy relationship. My superstitious very Italian mother hates it. She says fulgurites are cursed and bring ill luck to the home. But I am not superstitious. The rock and I stare at each other every morning because we share a history. We've both been struck by lightning. Sometimes I lean forward after pouring myself a cup of coffee and tap the mug to the rock and say, "cheers."
I was nine years old and coming home from school. There was a storm of the mediocre muggy summer afternoon sort and the sky was an angry puffy blue, like a face with a black eye. I'd seen storms like these almost every day of every summer of my life up to that point. I knew how they worked, what they smelled like, how they moved, and I knew from the way the sky seemed to take a deep breath and roll over that it was about to downpour, so I started jogging to get home. Somewhere in the last hundred or so yards to my driveway, I realized the hair on my arms was standing straight up. I remember thinking, "That's weird."
I'd like to think that being struck by lightning is about as close as a human being can get to something like the event horizon of a blackhole. There's something about that moment when my hair stood up that I cannot erase from my memory...like realizing you are being stretched into something you cannot escape, a thousandth of a second of a wordless profundity. Maybe at some point there was something like a gravitational singularity, where time stood still and that maybe at that point I saw into my past and into my future. A moment of infinity.
Well, either way it fried some things.
When I first picked up that fulgurite, I can't explain it, but it was if the stone and I had an understanding. Even on a molecular level. Two magnets, drawn to each other and repelled by each other. While I tend to have an Adam-complex and I go around naming every single thing in my domain, the rock is simply the rock. The one significant object that shares my space but remains without a name, without a label, without a denomination to me. It is...in a sense...symbolic of everything I cannot predict or control. And every morning I get up, I look at it, and it reminds me that change is always prickling underneath my toes, or tickling the top of my head.
THank you! (Also...I MOVED 2000 MILES)
Thank you for the birthday wishes, everyone. Thirty-seven trips around the sun now. I will be getting to all of your comments as soon as I can to thank you and also to catch up with everyone.
So, something a little wild happened after my last journal when I said I was back. I moved. I moved two thousand miles to the opposite coast of the continent. I live in New York now in the Finger Lakes region. It is my paradise. I'm in the middle of nowhere and sit on acres upon acres of forest. Internet is...temperamental at best and nonexistent at most. I'm almost entirely off grid and everything here in the woods is trying to kill me. Including the p
because I can't stop
So I'm back and I have a serious question. Do you consider screenshot photography to be an art? I ask because in what little time I have off, I frequently devote to killing dragons, taking down super mutants, farming 16-bit vegetables and what not. Annnnndddddddd screencapping the heck out of it because, apparently, I'm incapable of even relaxing without taking photographs of it.
It's become yet another passion of mine and I'm distressed to find that I can't find a suitable category for something like it here.
No, it doesn't have F-stops or ISOs or the like, but I've still had to learn to use a distinct set of tools to work within the confi
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10828 messages? Hahahahahahaha. No. I'm not going through all of them. I love you guys, but no. No can do. That said, how are all of you?!
I'm BACCCKKKKKK...you poor poor souls.
So I took a year off. First the surgery, then I got slammed with a lot of work, became burnt out, then took a turn for the worst in a battle with severe major depressive disorder, fought against my own brain for the entirety of the fall (the closest by far I've ever come to taking my own life), had another surgery, returned to work and today have returned to dA.
I know. I've missed out on more than I can ever truly catch up on. Like a lot of people I tend to shut doors and wall myself in when I'm not doing well and I need strangers to save my life because I won't listen to the wisdom of my closest confidantes. Maybe it was because deviantART
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I love how you wrote this, you should write more lit, you're talented